So, I’m in a really weird stage in my life right now. It’s senior year, and I’m motivated to do things. While also being completely unmotivated to do things. For example, like I mentioned, I’ve been sick for a little over a week. Been home for little over a week as well. So I’ve missed some stuff at school. I’m going to sound like a complete dork for saying this. But I like being caught up on school work. It stresses me out if I’m behind. So I’m motivated to do the work that was sent home. So I’m not AS behind. But my body does NOT want to do it. I mean like to the point where I literally spent all day today making myself a new digital bullet journal just cause!
It’s just odd, obviously it’s not all about my homework. I have multiple projects that I want to start/ halfway started in a way. One of them being this blog. Another one being to finally start my short novel that people and I have been wanting for me to do for at least 3 years now. Especially now that I feel like I’m getting my writing mojo back it makes me want to do it more. Then my room makeover which was going to be my senior project but we changed it to now just being a family project. Among other topics and projects that I’m wanting to do.
I just find it really interesting. I went about a year, year and a half in a creative drought in a way, and finding it really hard to get my brain active and interested. To now. Having a whole metaphorical pile of projects and things that I want to do, on top of school work. That my brain Is being pulled in 13 different directions. Not to mention it seems like when I work on one project I get 5 more ideas for another project. Now I’m not complaining! At all. I love it. It’s honestly just interesting how I went from nothing to a million things at once.
I will say this. I feel like having a million ideas and projects at once is just as tiring as sitting for hours trying to figure out what to do or get that spark to light.
But I think that’s all I have to say right now…. when I started typing my mind was racing with random thoughts but seemed to calm down and find a followable path. Not exactly what I had envisioned. But I hope you enjoyed my weird brain dump. I want to do this again sometime. It’s good to just brain ooze. I hope you enjoyed my late night ramble nonetheless.
I got a few requests and ideas for posts so I’m working on those now that I’m not totally sick. So those will hopefully be up in the next few weeks.
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